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Mike XVX - I’m Not Afraid To Admit That I Need Help

I’m just frustrated, is all. I understand that things going on in my life are ridiculously miniscule on a larger scale and, maybe I’m only seeing what I’m directly exposed to.

Why can’t people just be honest with me? I’ve noticed that it’s the same situation in all the places I go, people follow the same patterns, even when people are isolated from an outside influence.

Maybe that doesn’t make sense…this is just a rough patch in my life. These past few months have been really hard. I don’t feel like everyone’s against me or anything like that, it’s just…I feel like everyone’s on a different team now. We’re all striving for the same goals I just feel alone in my struggles recently.

It’s just difficult to embrace the changes that have been going on. I’m learning to love myself again…it’s been hard to look people in the face. It just feels like my heart weighs so much that it’s difficult to walk around with my head up anymore, I guess.

I feel detached from everyone.

I feel like people base relationships on synthetic experiences and false connections and chemical enhancements and shit like that. I don’t know…I’m not too strong to admit that it hurts my feelings.

I want real romance, I want real liberation, and I know I’m not the only person who wants that. I just want you to know that you’re not alone if you feel that way too. I feel like there are so many lives that are worth living that you don’t just have to commit to one of them. I mean, all you have to do is have the courage to face what you really want and admit to yourself what you really want out of your life. What actions are you going to take to get there?

I want to build new traditions, and I want us to value friendship and honesty and compassion over everything else. I just want us to live in a culture free of poisons and free of tyrants.

I can’t do that on my own though. I’m not afraid to admit that I need help…